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My mom was worried about me because my face changed. I was super thin.
4 months earlier, I decided to stop eating meat and fish, and went on a hard core vegetarian diet. The first 2 months, I felt amazing. Light, clear minded, conscious. The next 2 months, I lost weight, was hungry and irritable, and sluggish.
My mom saw me in month 4. Maybe I wasn’t eating the right protein sources. Maybe I wasn’t doing a good job monitoring my nutrition. I don’t know. I know that there are entire civilizations that thrive on plant only diets. I also know that my body was asking for something else.
So I changed. My mind. My eating habits and now eat meat. Will I become a vegetarian in the future? Sure. It’s possible. I think eating animals is a bad thing. But this post is not about my moral views around animals. It’s about something else.
It’s about me giving myself permission to change my mind.
Mostly, it’s about me changing my mind about what’s important to me in this moment. Here are my current hierarchy of needs.
1. I WANT TO WRITE MORE:
I’ve been very busy scaling a global company, and my writing has taken a backseat to running a business. I miss writing. It feels good to sit down on a rainy Sunday morning in Santo Domingo and write this.
2. I WANT TO CONTINUE TO CREATE AND DISTRIBUTE MORE FREE CONTENT FOR YOU:
Over the last 18 months, I have hired teams of people to turn myself into a legit media company. It is working. I am receiving more opportunities than I ever imagined. I’m grateful for this success and want to give back more. To you, for free, forever.
3. I WANT TO EXPLORE CULTURE AND TRAVEL WITH A PURPOSE:
I am bored on a beach vacation after about 3 days. Last night, I met the Mayor of Santo Domingo, and he shared the city’s vision about bike lanes and what it means for the economy. We shot a short video. I can’t wait to share it with you.
4. I WANT TO NEVER COMPLAIN:
I work on this every day. Complaining is the ultimate sign of weakness. When you complain, you CHOSE to be a victim. When you complain, you CHOSE to slow yourself down. When you complain you CHOSE to see the bad, instead of the good. All avoidable poison. I want to get to a place where I never, not once, ever, complain. I’ll get there.
5. I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE EVERY DAY:
With golden hour in Medellin, or a sunrise in Mexico. With your story and past. With the eyes of a child. With an iced coffee on a hot Caribbean Day. With the moon kissing Central Park’s lagoon at midnight. With your the wrinkles of your smile. With the color of your soul. With the music in your voice.
6. I WANT FREEDOM TO NOT BE BOUND TO A LIST OF THINGS THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO ME:
If you ask me what I want to do tomorrow, this entire list may be different. I changed my mind.
And I am OK with that.
For my entire life, the harder I have tried to hold on to one thing, the more the joy gets squeezed out of it.
I am looking for the orange that changes into a lemon, a lime, a lychee, a mango. I am looking for a new seed for every squeeze. That swims around in my hand, and then falls to the earth all in the same intense moment and life-filled experience.
So that one day, I wake up to an entire tropical paradise that I created.
One change at a time.